As I'm sitting here in cosy pjs, very pretty pjs may I add, it's New Year's Eve and I bet everyone and even their  Nan's are out having fun but not me no I'm at home all cosy..I've been ill for a week, yes a bloody week and if you know me you know I don't cope very well with being ill I moan more then humanly possible untill I'm better so you can imagine the pain I've caused other people, sharing is caring right? But thing is I don't actually mind? New Year's Eve to me has always been a big hype I'm not that all fussed about it, I remember one New Years eve me and an ex boyfriend went out in London and omg you was lucky to be able to breathe let alone get a drink so from that day I told myself I would never ever go out again on New Year's Eve, and surprisingly I stuck to my word and only Ever gone to house parties\friends houses since, but other then feeling ill another reason I'm just not feeling very sociable at the moment? I'm not sure why Ive been feeling like this past few weeks just haven't felt myself I think a lot of it is to do with feeling crap about myself I know I've let myself go so much recently I just haven't seemed bothered about doing my hair etc and plus eating everything in sight, so I think to start feeling like the normal outgoing happy me I need to start being me again..enjoying doing my hair, get some sorta diet going, give people chances (that's a whole other issue that I shall do a blog post about in the future). Well from writing this I'm now currently getting ready to go out....so this staying in didn't last very long. Please remind me tomorrow drinking isn't big or clever. Happy new year :)